Somehow, I have to tell Lime Tea that I'm breaking up with it (see previous post). Modern Despair, even the stripped-down web-only version, will be way cooler. Plus, it doesn't make me sick with guilt to think about like LT does.

I'll be busting out more details about MD here while I work up the nerve to cross-post them at LT. It'll happen. If anyone wants to send me bracing emails along the lines of "Take heart, man!" or "Courage, old chap!" send 'em here.

I am totally not doing anything and have plenty of time to post to this cocksucker. This has been true for at least six months, but I only just noticed it now. I guess that's what separates me from the greats.

I would but I'm dead

Here's another problem: Lime Tea is so fucked that frankly, I'm afraid to even go in there. It's like when the cats are having a big fight in the bathroom and then it gets quiet-- too quiet.

I restarted Lime Tea (which is an online magazine-- not that you don't already know, since no one reads this except housemates and family members) and it's kind of turned out that my heart is not in it. Granted, my heart wasn't in it before, but the magazine had enough momentum to keep going. Now my heart isn't in it and neither is anyone else's. Bad combination.

What my heart really wants to do, besides stop beating for about 10 minutes just to see what happens, is start a different magazine site with a better name and a different focus. Can I do that? Will anyone read "Modern Despair?" Write for it? Pimp it on their blogs? Believe that it will be any more successful than the ignominious relaunch of Lime Tea?

Modern Despair is actually a real plan with details, believe it or not. It's a magazine by, for, and about depressed people. It was going (read: hoping) to be a print thing with a big launch, and it's what I gave up LT to do. (Okay, one of the things.)

Now, however, the goal is a lot more modest and manageable. It'll be an online magazine/community. If you want to be part of it, email me.